it's nothing

Have you ever feel like you're nothing around your friends ?
Yes, i have.

Right now, i'm feel like there's no one can understand me. I'm feel so tired and sick with this situation. I wanna cry but i can't. I wanna tell someone about what i feel, but there's no one. I wanna say it loud, but i can't.
God, please make me stronger :")
I don't need much friends, i just need friend who can understand me so well. I need someone who is always beside me even i'm happy or sad. Someone who can make me laugh. Someone who can make me comfortable. Someone who can know i'm sick/broke/cried inside even i'm smile and laugh outside.

But right now, i have to be strong for my self !